I miss you!!!
February 22, 2010 § 53 Comments
I wish I could go back.
To the times when I’d take long rides in the dull afternoons of summers on my tri-cycle. And would find the joy of worlds in a five-rupee note that’d bring me 2-rupee cake, a ras-gulla and what not.
I wish to go back to the times when you’d bring back my report card and I’d hide behind the door, ashamed at having scored a second. I always wanted to make you proud.
And to the times when in the dim mud-scent of winter rains, we’d go on a long drive and in the silence of Multan’s sub-urbs, you’d let me your words of inspiration.
I wish to go back to the times when everything was so simple and mundane. And nothing mattered, nothing at all, but you and everything was so perfect!! When you’d wake up every evening to tell me the tips on gardening and I’d fondly follow all around the garden.
I wish to go back when you’d surprise us with your sudden visits from Bahrain and as I’d walk to the living room, rubbing my eyes, there you would be with a big hug and lots of sweets and gifts. And I’d look into your twinkling eyes and laugh and stay up the rest of the night.
I want to turn the moments back to that point where I’m leaving the terminal and you’d give me a tight hug and wave your bye as you depart. The journey, every journey, seems incomplete without that. And when you’d recieve me every time I returned. My entire journey was spent in the anticipation of meeting you again and finding your smiling face looking back at me.
I wish you were here today!! And you’d grasp me in your warm, tight embrace and tell me that everything would be alright. So you’d solve it all, this complex mesh of life itself, in a matter of minutes and with a smile. Just like that! Just like you solved every single problem for me through those eighteen years. And then we’d go out on a long drive and have ice cones on our way back.
I wish!! Oh I so wish Abu jee!!
That made me cry )’:
SALMAN )’:
=) Such a lovely post! we do miss the times which have flown away with the winds and will never come back! I plunge back into my childhood memories whenever i read such posts on your blog,. they always remind me of something good. Good work! =)
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I wish I could go back or could get only 2 more minutes with dad, I’d spend a LIFE-Time in those 2 minutes!
Miss you baba!
you know every word here seems to be coming directly from your heart and it could be felt really.
Now that I feel much better…
Salman, you’ve two options:
1) Be sad over it. Want him to be back, which you know ain’t possible.
2) Accept the way things are. And be happy.
(: BTW you’re the sorta son I bet every father would be proud to have. Even my own father would love to trade me for you. :P :P
Cheer up (:
The journey is the reward. -Tao Saying
“Don’t grieve. Anything you lose comes round in another form.” -Rumi
“Since grief only aggravates your loss, grieve not for what is past.” -Walker Percy
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“That though the radiance which was once so bright be now forever taken from my sight. Though nothing can bring back the hour of splendor in the grass, glory in the flower. We will grieve not, rather find strength in what remains behind.” -William Wordsworth
YAY! I designed the cover for you dairy :P
I REALLY hope you like it! (:
http://mm89.files.wordpress.com/2010/02/diary_cover.png
*your
CUTE Cover :D
@ Salman, you haven’t changed one bit :O. You look just the same. I am assuming, the kid in the picture is you :P
BTW beautiful post. Touching. VERY.
Very nicely written!
I too wish to go back in time when five rupees were the whole wealth for me! Ah! Old times!
Hey thanks everyone for the lifting words and for liking the post :)
@M.M
Thanks for the cover. It’s very cute!!! :)
@Em
Have you seen me sometime earlier? :S
Salman:
((:
Em:
O.O
Dude, your picture on twitter and on your blog :P
BTW thanks for liking the cover :P
And if I’m not wrong, you’re Neeham/you-know-who. :P
Where have you disappeared? I tried responding to your emails, but my replies bounced back. As usual ):
:P
Oh yea! You’ve got that right. I haven’t really disappeared. I’m just on a break :P. I will be back soon :D
and email!!! umm umm, how do i give you my email address .. I should add you.
Ohk :D
Cherish-able thing is the great memories that he left with us – enough to keep giving us hope for the rest of our lives.
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Rightly said :)
@Em: Are you at FB? Add me up :P
BTW how long will this break be? :P
@Salman: I made us a vote using WAP. Keep wondering HOW. :P
Okay. I hope i have the right person on fb! The break will be .. umm .. i don’t know :D. Lets see.. short, i hope :D
Very touching post. :) .. it makes me want to grasp THIS time with both hands or something… that I still have both parents with me Alhamdulillah — and not have senseless arguments and what not..
And yeah, the post made me recall the days when we used to get 2 Rupees for school :D .. (aik sandwich ata tha is ka)..
You are right – you are very luck indeed!! :)
Btw I used to go for the two-rupee packet of biscuits :P
I’m at lost what to say. Or what to say not. BUT I guess, I should not be confusing myself. A very heart-rending post – extremely tugging to heartstrings :]
:)
When i was a child i read somewhere, “Great writters don’t just write on a piece of paper… They bring it to life…” back then i could never comrephend that but after reading this and some other posts i guess i can fathom what it truly means to be a writer… Its an honor having the grace to know u ^^ ahem yea i know emo xD nvm xD
Rather, it’s fortunate of me to know friends like you who really are my inspiration! :)
And yea that was emo :P :P
very well written bhai . . . Im literally out of words!
a very touchy post but i love it!
Memories are all we have after a time passed, i soo wish to go back to my childhood years! ):
I wish that someday i can write like you (: !
Goodluck!
A very touching article! ;-) My father was never like that. He was always the cold, rational, perfect, wise, intelligent, educated, kind, gentle, compassionate, understanding, generous, selfless……well, basically “perfect” person. I grew up admiring him as the greatest man in the world but there was never an affectionate love there. I envy you your memories :)
@Palvshe
Thank you for liking the post and the compliments, Palvshe :)
Indeed memories are out treasure-trove from the past.
@Nobody
You were equally lucky to have a dad who inspired you, fella. Everyone has his own way of citing his care and love :)
very touching!
It ripped me apart to read your post.
Dad, somewhere above the skies, must be really proud to have a son like you, Salman. Grieve not but rather find splendour in the memories. He is just there watching you :)
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May Allah rest his soul in peace and highest bliss of heavens.
Aameen.
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@Rabia
:)
@sidrajafri
That very thought has kept me going and that’s what makes every feat meaningful for me…:)
@Fizza
Ameen :)
:)
Be strong.
:’)
I wish so.
@Sidra
I am :)
@Hassan
:)
@salu -.-’ ya ya now dun go all emo on me i am still not letting you wiggle your way out of the treat your gonna give for winning tamasha xD
I too am waiting for that treat. :P
Yah! You’re right about that Salman. I have no complaints about my upbringing! I love my father more than anyone!
Btw: The name is Nobodoy, not Nobody! LOL!
Actually, it’s Angel.
Or Skydancer.
None of them are my real name but I won’t give that out over the internet. :)
Beautifully written.
@Dev!l
Lol am not emo :D And konsi treat? :P
@M.M
What treat? :P
@Nobody
Lol sorry for misspelling your nick :)
@Natasha
Thanks :)
I didn’t expect that from you :P
“Stop acting as if life is a rehearsal. Live this day as if it were your last. The past is over and gone. The future is not guaranteed.” – Wayne dyer.
“Let go. Why do you cling to pain? There is nothing you can do about the wrongs of yesterday. It is not yours to judge.” — Leo Buscaglia
“The harder you fight to hold on to specific assumptions, the more likely there’s gold in letting go of them.” — John Seely Brown
“I want to turn the moments back to that point where I’m leaving the terminal and you’d give me a tight hug and wave your bye as you depart. The journey, every journey, seems incomplete without that.”
This was very nicely said. Theres something so uncanny about airports. I think i once saw a random movie where they said all sorts of logic in relationships is left outside the premises of airports; what you see at airports is people just as themselves…there is something so comforting about airports….but then there was this book that said airports and planes, they kill all laughter. Strange.
Still, this was very nicely said:)
“I want to turn the moments back to that point where I’m leaving the terminal and you’d give me a tight hug and wave your bye as you depart. The journey, every journey, seems incomplete without that.”
This was very nicely said. Theres something so uncanny about airports. I think i once saw a random movie where they said all sorts of logic in relationships is left outside the premises of airports; what you see at airports is people just as themselves…there is something so comforting about airports….but then there was this book that said airports and planes, they kill all laughter. Strange.
Still, this was very nicely said.
This is a very touching and beauteous post…I liked the way you wrote this post…(.” I wish to go back to the times when you’d bring back my report card and I’d hide behind the door, ashamed at having scored a second. I always wanted to make you proud.”….and “I wish to go back when you’d surprise us with your sudden visits from Bahrain and as I’d walk to the living room, rubbing my eyes, there you would be with a big hug and lots of sweets and gifts. And I’d look into your twinkling eyes and laugh and stay up the rest of the night.”, )..I fell in love with these words….I don’t know why I wish to read and enjoy their beauty again and again….From this post, I understood that you miss your father and your childhood a lot….To go back to our past life is something impossible…So live your present life happily with happy memories of your past…:)
Indeed we can only live in the present and make those memories a strength to help us continue on the path we follow…thanks for you kind words, Jahan! :)